13 May 2017


I'm fucking tired
Of this unnecessary attachment
I never intended to pursue it for this long
I don't even know how it grows and develops
It all happened unintentionally
You don't deserve my sadness
Not even my tears
But why do some part of me feel something
Whenever I see you walking
Nonchalantly, ignoring my existence
I honestly don't know what I'm actually feeling
Is it anger?
Seeing you with the person who don't even care
What you've been telling her before
I was there
Right there, listening to you
The story of your misery and heartbreak
Just one step she took out of insecurities
When she doesn't feel sincere towards you
And you push me away just like a trash
This heartache seems like there's no end to it
I've tried my best
I've denied it, repeatedly
But it keeps coming back to me somehow
God if there's just one word to describe what I've been feeling
It's betrayal
You're a fucking traitor
Fuck you
Just let me out of this game

30 Jan 2017


There seem to be an endless escape 
No matter how fast I run
I'm still trapped within these concrete walls
That I built slowly, out of hellish boredom and heartaches 
Suffocating, gasping for breath that I know I no longer need 
Cause in the end living means suffering
So I continue doing the norm
But deep within my tar black soul 
I'm a prisoner of my own lust
And now I'm lost